Anti-love poems

For Valentine's Day

Hell and Back

You are the permanent stamp
Branded on my brain
Since you, everyone else was temporary
Nothing about this life is not scary

I don’t think about you anymore
Just the idea of you—and the pain
The wounds that are still raw
I’ll never again be able to see what I saw

The good, now burned to the ground
At least I’ve learned from your hate
But I can’t stop being bothered by the fact
That I thought you were all I had

Though the world outside of you is so large
This journey is even harder without you
Each step forward I’m escaping my past
I said I’d go through hell and back

For you…
I guess I really did.

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Waves

The last time was enough
The last time I split myself open
Revealed every vulnerable part
And had left where I was at the start

The last time was enough
The last time I didn’t want your love
I told you I don’t want to feel you anymore
But now you’re all I feel

It comes in waves
The wanting, the endless crave
It comes in waves
The hatred, the silent decay

I paint a picture of you in my head
With beautiful pinks and reds
My mind has been mislead
Is this what it’s like to want someone dead?

You invade my thoughts once again
Then I push you away
But I can’t not think about you
There’s too much to say

Every time we say goodbye it hurts
You pained me, then you painted me
In deep blues
I guess the only one who’s ever seen me is you

When you finally leave my mind
I don’t want to come back to you next time
I will no longer dwell on the ghosts of my past
This shadow over my shoulder will not last